Luahan perasaan

Selalunya if someone has sisters, they will share their secrets with each other. But since i have no sister, i tot maybe i should luahkan perasaan dekat sini. I know, I have Allah, other family members, but sometime there is something that I cant share it with everybody. Since this blog is already private i think it is okay. Hurm, I know this one person keep following my stories through this blog. That is why I keep it private. Tak selesa coz I dont like it. She\he did mention it on she/he twitter that i already private my blog. Sorry awak. You are the one who are not allowed to read my blog supposedly.

Okay I know banyak sangat sour memories between us. Actually im still wondered why you behaved like that towards me. You know that was realy hurt. You did that for almost one year. Am i the who should be blamed? You know, the reason why i keep repeating this bad memories because i thought we have really good relationship before this. I sayang hubungan kita. You know that? That is why i keep wondering. Sekarang dah jadi macam ni, kita susah nak patah balik. Now I just want to keep it clean between us. So it is better this way, i want to keep silent on twitter, facebook, and i hope in instagram too. Especially in this new year. I know im the bad hamba kepada Allah. I know it very well and of coz i want me to change.

My new year resolutions:
1. Nak kurus, nak kurus, nak kurus, nak kurus.
2. Jadi budak yang baik to parents, Allah, friends.
3. Simpan duit every month.
4. Nak ada lesen please, why too expensive. Oo why?

Thats all for today. Since im have bad feeling lately, i might update a lot to luahkan perasaan, walaupun takde siapa akan baca, it is okay. I love it, macam buat diary yang orang tak boleh baca.

back off!

So back off heartache. tak patut rasa kecik hati dengan dia, but after all of  that, i feel sad.

Beautiful Ending

This time I can proudly announce that I have finished my study (diploma). Macam macam yang I rasa, happy, sad, excited. For someone yang tahap kepandaiannya average macam I, the result that I got yesterday sangat memuaskan. Thanked god, Alhamdulillah I dapat maintainkan my cgpa which is above 3.50. The day before result macam macam yang bermain inside my head ni. I dah rasa I might repeat one of the subjects, there is no final exam, just final year project which is the project taking 60% of the marks include quizzes and tests, 40%. So when I saw my result yesterday, I'm as happy as a king! Thank you Dr. sebab I tahu yang mostly Dr. banyak tolong. We know our final year project is not that good, a lot of mistakes. And to all the pensyarah, thank you so much, although para pensyarah sekalian tak akan membacanya di sini. (arghh bakunya ayat) I'm really thankful. Most of the lecturer yang ajar, I semuanya super awesome. No word can describe how I berterima kasih dekat my lecturers.

Next, kena setelkan perkara untuk graduation day! It seems difficult, haishh. Tak suka lah benda formal formal ni. Haha

Zaman diploma: You know kekadang adalah susahnya tapi I paling bersyukur jumpa kawan yang superb! One of the greatest things that had happen to me. Now I miss them so much! GBM; Awin, Dini, Ainul, Zati, Ida and Ley, Qiqi. They show me the meaning of true friendship. Okay sedih. I overly attached to them. I tak pernah sangka ada sifat tak betul dalam diri ni. I thought I ni spesies yang ala ala baik, tak gila gila. Now I know, since berkawan dengan diorang, I rupanya gila gila jugak, Hahaha. Miss you gais. Tapi tanpa schoolmates semua tu dulu, belajar sesama, buat homework tak siap sama sama, rehat sesama, kemungkinan I tak masuk UiTM. Everyone has their own specialties. Thanks for coming into my life.

20 facts about me

1. I think i'm fat *cry. Dah try diet banyak kali dah actually but berkesan dia macam tak berkesa. But i will not give up. Tomorrow is the new beginning. Ecehh
2. Dah tua, umur 20 tahun dah. Satu jenis moto pun tak reti bawak *sigh. Malunya.
3. I love to cook, but if it too often, i cepat bosan.
4. Creative tapi sekarang tak asah dah bakat creative. Sebab tu semua yang dibuat terasa buruknyaa.
5. Addicted to coffee. Mocha, cappuccino and others!
6. Teringin nak buka a business tapi diri ni takde ciri ciri untuk orang berbisnes
7. Suka movies, english and korean. Not into Malays dramas/movies. 
8. Susah nak sabar bila tengok dramas. Prefer to watch the first two episodes  and the last two episodes, 
9. Loves food.
10. Easy to fall in love. Sekarang, suka someone since 2012 kot. Entah tak ingat. Muahaha
11. Suka sebenarnya nak bagi orang hadiah tapi sebab selalu takde duit, makanya takdelah hadiahnya.
12. Actually, i ni kedekut orangnya, pandai berjimat la jugak but i wonder kenapa i tak banyak duit. hahaha. 
13. Zaman sekolah seorang yang giler nak mati tahap sensetive tapi since masuk universiti tahap ke sensetive an tu dah berkurangan. I jadi lebih pentingkan diri. Sometimes rasa diri ni jahat sangat, rasa nak balik ke perangai zaman sekolah. But i'm sure there is pros and cons.
14. Until now, love Yongseo couple. Don't know why, maybe because masa dalam WGM diorang malu malu, macam first love, takdelah too many skinships like other couples in WGM.
15. Bukan kaki shopping.
16. Tak berapa suka cakap dalam telephone, kekok pastu pekak sikit, haha. Salah phone kot.
17. Pernah minat gila subjek membaca.
18. Punctual! 
19. Zaman universiti banyak buat benda yang tak pernah jangka i akan buat.
20. LOVE all my family, friends zaman sekolah, universiti, kerja. Rindu.

Dugaan

Mcd buat promosi tapi memang taklah nak beli, kalau buka facebook je, mesti ada iklan #jimatjimatMcd, walaupun tak like page dia.

Adoi,nak mengumpan orang beli ke apa, nasib baiklah since boikot and kena transfer kampus Tapah, dah tak menjamah apa apa pun makanan Mcd, tapi still minum Milo *sigh . Okaylah since Milo dekat rumah pun dah habis and mama pun dah beli serbuk koko yang ada kurma, entah apa entah nama dia, rasa boleh tahan macam Milo tapi haruslah Milo lagi sedap sebab serbuk koko tu ada rasa kurma sikit.
Okay back to cerita pasal Mcd tadi, memang terasa nak beli pun burger burger dia yang yummy tu tapi i nak teruskan boikot sampailahhhh bila bila.

see, this is one of the Mcd promotions. sedappnyaaa. K bubye Mcd. semoga kita tak diketemukan lagi.

haaa, yang nilah serbuk koko yang dimaksudkan. I ambik masa nak suka serbuk ni. Ni semua salah Milo, sedap sangat. 

happy hols

This holidays gonna be as bored as always. Hah. Last night, everything dah terbongkar. Okay, actually I'm scared. Tetiba insomnia tapi taklah sangat kalau pukul 1 dah boleh tidur. Tapi seriously, rasa takut tu semua ada. Rasa macam taknak jumpa that person dah lepas ni, tapi apakan daya, mesti kena jumpa jugaklah. Tulah akibat sebab perbuatan dia.

Anddddd, i made a video for Geng Berudu Mons, okay video tu huduh gila nak mampus. Nak tunjuk pun macam taknak, kita post dekat sini jelah kan.

Really

Perlu ke korang nak bagitau apa yang korang tengah study. Really? Macam childish je, tak boleh ke nak buat notes dalam bentuk hardcopy ke? Still kena buat notes dalam bentuk alam maya ke? Actually bukan apa, hormatlah sikit orang yang tak baca habis macam aku ni ha. Aish, aku dah gelabah bila terms yang korang sebut tu aku tak sampai lagi. Agak agaklah ye. Sekian

statement apakah itu?

Statement dalam twitter yang di retweet by one of my friends ; " tak payang sembanglah pasal cinta kalau single". Excuse me. Please la sebelum tulis any statement, think first. Kena dah ada couple , husband wife semua tu baru boleh sembang pasal cinta? Meh I nak habaq mai, orang yang single pun rasanya bolehnya utarakan sebrang persoalan pasal cinta, observation mereka terhadap hal hal percintaan, tak salah rasanya sebab cinta tu universal. Ok, I'm single. Maybe apa yang cik adik tu nak tell to the world is: kalau single better senyap je bila orang yang bercouple ni tentang berbicara tentang LOVE. Sebab kita takde pengalaman about Love. Hurm, tapi I still tak boleh nak setuju dengan pandangan dia. Nasib baik kita ni manusia, cara kita berfikir lain lain, so other people agree with that statement, siapa tahu, right :) daa, peace yo

Untuk Aku

Macam untuk aku je tweet tu. Kalau ye pun ada aku kisah. Memang selama I'm trying to avoid you. hopefully you perasan lah, and if you dah perasan, it is better. I dah harap dah hubingan kita tak kan sampai jauh mana pun. since that peristiwa yang you mulakan dulu, i guess tak salahkan kalau I tak nak dah jumpa dengan you. sepanjang kita jumpa dekat sinilah kan, actually I dah takde hati dah k. I macam dah tak ikhlas kawan dengan you and i'm really sorry for everything. Ouh btw, cermin diri tu dulu okay. That's it. we done.... maybe

Can't Hold It Back

Yesterday, I cried thinking what happened after diploma, says farewell to my best buddies ever. Not meeting them after this, cannot do crazy thing after this. Oh my, it is hard. They are already becoming my other behalf. I love them so much. GBM always stay together kayyy :) And last night, I talked to my crush, I guess I have no feeling anymore since I can talk to him the way I talked to my friends, but still there is a little feeling for him. However, diploma comes to the end, I should, must forget him.

Heartache

Second post in the same day. Have you ever felt heartache? I feel it right now. It is hurt. Why do I need to have crushes? Tired? Of course I am tired! All of the crushes, they only saw my friends! Am I not good enough? Hurm, I need to go far away where I am now! Hopefully I can forget about them. If I meet my old crush, I think I can like him back. Oh, why? Too many girls like you. I can see why you ignore me.

Hingga Ke Akhirnya

Guess what, my diploma session already comes to the end. Do I feel sad? Of course, I do sad. Although my classmates and I just so-so, but still I do feel sad when it comes to farewell. Do I want to see them again? Hmm, maybe no, I want to meet new people with new experience. But I hope we will always keep in touch. I know, our relationship between classmates are not so good. I don't know what went wrong. Maybe we have different behavior, my group more to a crazy bunch of people and the other side, just too polite and feminine I guess. We are just not meant to be together.

However, thank you all memories that we had created through these five semesters. From UiTM Seri Iskandar > UiTM Tapah. And to my crush; I don't whether you know that I like you or not, I just want to say bye bye. Well, I know who the girl that you like and she seems to like you too. MAYBE. I hope that none of my friends know that post since this blog has been lonely for a long time,  

Sigh

You just have too many secrets. Heartache

My First Entry in 2014!

Hi Blog! it has been almost a year since my last update! Okay, rasa awkward bila dah lama sangat tak update blog. My 2014 has been quite awesome! Except adalah certain problems kena hadapi sampai rasa diri ni jahat sangat. What i don't like zaman university ni bila hati ni semakin keras tak selembut masa zaman sekolah dulu. Betullah kata orang, pengalaman boleh mengajar kita. Jangan terlalu baik sangat, orang akan pijak kita! haha, taklah sampai pijak kita tapi bila kita terlalu baik, orang macam tak kisah nak buat apa apa pun dekat kita. Sometimes i wonder, kenapa certain people suka sangat tunjukkan problems yang diorang ada tu bila sama sama dengan kawan kawan. Sya pun maybe kekadang macam tu, cuma kita tak perasan kita buat muka (kot). Kita fikir baik baik je lah dekat orang since kita hidup dalam masyarakat ni. Unless kita hidup sesorang, macam takde kaitan je kan.

Sejak ada Tumblr (untuk meluahkan perasaan where no one knows that i have tumblr),  Instagram (upload gambar bila rajin and bila gambar tu cantik), Facebook, Twitter (both Facebook and Twitter: dah bosan, just log in gitu gitu je). Sebab tu blog ni ditinggalkan bersawang. Sometimes rasa nak deactive je semua social network ni tapi nampaknya iman tak cukup kukuh.

Less than a week, masuk balik Uitm di hatiku! My final semester! Going to do well, insha Allah :) This time, dapat merasa kampus baru, facilities semua baru, bilik baru, roomate baru, tempat baru and of course la subjek baru. Can't wait for my graduation next year, Amin. Hmmm, what i'm going to do after diploma? Insha Allah, kalau ada rezeki, nak belajar kereta (tu lah dulu lepas ES.PI.EM, penakut sangat nak belajar kereta, dah tua baru lah nak belajar), nak cari kerja office(minta tolong kawan ayahlah).

Banyaklah pulak isu dalam satu entry ni. K lah Adios

P/s; penulis blog ni sangat jahat sejak kebelakangan ni. *sigh